Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Dec
21

WELL THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY. THE SECOND WORSE DAY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. BUT I’M SURE LIFE IS JUST ABOUT TO GET WORSE! TYLER AND I CHATTED ABOUT IT ON MSN MESSENGER… THIS IS ALL OF WHAT HAPPENED:

COREY says:
Tyler are you there?

TEE says:
ya

TEE says:
was up

COREY says:
Can you call Grant and Jason and tell them I’m alright?

COREY says:
please.

TEE says:
yeah dude.. what happened

COREY says:
just tell them… ill tell you later… (I’m fine and I’m still with my Grandma)

TEE says:
??

COREY says:
what?

COREY says:
what??

TEE says:
tell me what happened

COREY says:
did you call them up?

TEE says:
ya i texted them

COREY says:
thank you.

COREY says:
They must of been real frightened.

TEE says:

COREY says:
Alright…

COREY says:
I met up with Grant and Jason over at Grant’s house.

COREY says:
Before Jason got there I called my Grandma to tell her I was going to be a few minutes late cause Jason had to go home to pick his X-box up.

COREY says:
She told me my mother was going to be coming over… she needed to talk to me.

COREY says:
We’ll of course I didn’t want Jason and Grant to be in the mix of things, so I asked my Grandma for my mother’s number. She gave it to me, and I called her up.

COREY says:
I said, “Mom? Are you going to be going over to, Mawzie’s (my grandma)?”

COREY says:
She replied, “Yes.”

COREY says:
I said, “Why?”

COREY says:
She said, “To come and get you.”

COREY says:
I said, “I’m not coming with you!”

COREY says:
She said, “Yes, yes you are!”

TEE says:

COREY says:
I repeated that I wasn’t. She said that she would call the police then to come and get me.

COREY says:
I said good luck with that! I’m still not going!

COREY says:
She told me she was going to come and get me no matter what! I hung up on her.

TEE says:
wtf.

COREY says:
I called my Grandma up again and told her the news. I said, “I’m coming home.” I told Grant and Jason thanks anyway guys, I got to go. Grant said maybe we could do it some other time. I left in tears. I was convulsing in the car teary eyed and crying.

TEE says:
shit man..

COREY says:
I knew I couldn’t take the highway like that, so I took OLD KC to go to SpringHill instead.

TEE says:
ya good idea..

COREY says:
Near the Hillsdale exit, I see my dad pull out with the van. As I passed him he shook his hand RAPIDLY, not like to say “Hello”, more like to say, “I got you now!” I sped up to like 65mph and went across the bridge.

TEE says:
fuck.

COREY says:
I finally got home. Recapped everything to my Grandma. Still shaking. I had to put a blanket on, I wasn’t cold, just shivering. She asked if she wanted me to call the police. I said, “No. We don’t have a chance. They have the police coming here anyway.”

COREY says:
My mother called there a little bit later. I said, “WHAT DO YOU WANT?” She went over her little thing again, I told her to go screw herself. She got mad and I gave the phone to Mawzie. She got to talking to her and said if my mother wanted to play “dirty” then she would too.

TEE says:
geez

COREY says:
They started at eachother for awhile. Bringing up stuff like how my mother was, THE WAY SHE PUT IT, “raped” by the father of my sisters (that they do not know about), which was of course all a lie. My Grandma told me they had been engaged. My mother then proceeded to talk about my Grandma’s husband (her father) who is now dead. That made my grandma… well “Pissed” (excuse my language).

COREY says:
Well, my aunt came over. (she is the peace maker I’m telling you… I don’t know how this would have gone without her)

TEE says:
thank god..

COREY says:
She talked to my mother. Told her how I felt. My mother said that if I didn’t come home with her then I would go to Juivy. She wanted me to come to a counselor meeting with the family. She said they were GOING to get counsoling for the entire family.

COREY says:
I of course thought it was just my father that needed it. And I told my aunt that if my mother really “cared” about me that much she would let me stay here then allow me to go to Juivy-Hall.

TEE says:
what the fuck thats illogical just let you stay with you gma

COREY says:
All in all, my aunt finally made a deal. My mother said she would let me stay (my aunt told me she heard my father yell out, “TEMPORARILY”) as long as I went to counseling with the family.

COREY says:
No they do have the “LAW” on their side. They can take me back at any moment. SRS told them they could. (I GUESS THEY CLEANED THE HOUSE)

TEE says:
shit

COREY says:
So I have to go to counseling and confront my father now (the hardest thing in the world for me right now) WHY CAN’T THEY JUST LET ME GO?!!!!! Do they really think I’m just going to COME EASY and go back to that “HELL-of-a-father”? I have no love for them right now! And that’s not going to change. This has been built up for like 10years….. did they really think I was never going to boil over?

COREY says:
Now they want a second chance! LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!! I’ve given them plenty of chances! 10 years of chances! It’s their own fault I’m gone!

COREY says:
So I have to go to they counseling or they will force me back.

TEE says:
if they truely cared they would listen to what you want..

TEE says:
i would just stick it through

TEE says:
be as openly honest with the counselor as possible

COREY says:
My only hope is that my mother will see that I truly have no like for them, and that it will never change, and that I’m never going back, NEVER! I’ll go to Juivinile Hall if need be! That will show how much they truly care about me!!!!

COREY says:
(I’m saving this and putting it on XANGA okay tee? Is that alright?)

TEE says:
def

COREY says:
K thanks.

COREY says:
Anything not clear?

TEE says:
no i think i heard it all

TEE says:
definately tell the counselor everything tho

COREY says:
I’m going to try… But it’s going to be hard with my father there. I have to go “alone” too. So its me verse the family… tough crap…

TEE says:
your sisters will be there..

COREY says:
so…? they are against me right now too. They’ve been suckered in. My father’s prescence will make them keep their mouths shut.

TEE says:
….

COREY says:
I just pray to GOD that the counselor is taking the winter break off.

COREY says:
Why did they have to ruin the last day of school for me?

TEE says:
its over man..

TEE says:
they have to let you enjoy christmas..

COREY says:
No they don’t. They can still come over here and get me whenever they want.

COREY says:
God, I’m so frightened…

COREY says:
And Lindsey and I just got everything sorted back together!…. I’m going to have to let her go… I can’t take having her mixed up in all this crap… she needn’t be.

TEE says:
thats good

COREY says:
I guess…

TEE says:
whats your gma’s number

COREY says:
phone?

TEE says:
ya

COREY says:
913.592.2992

TEE says:
if you ever need anything

TEE says:
ANYTHING

TEE says:
money

TEE says:
food

TEE says:
place to stay

TEE says:
you know my number

COREY says:
yeh I do.

TEE says:
i will hold down the fort for you dude

TEE says:
just call me

COREY says:
yeh… I’m sure you would Ty… but things are soon to get worse… “DAMNIT! I THOUGHT THINGS WERE OVER!!!!!! NO! THEY HAVE TO STRETCH THINGS OUT! JUST AS I AM GETTING MY LIFE BACK!!!!!

TEE says:
i’ll be prayin my balls off for you

COREY says:
dude thanks alot… seriously, that means a great deal alot to me…

TEE says:
you know i’m here dude

TEE says:
but i’ve gtg

COREY says:
ill see you later man

TEE says:
k

COREY says:
ill keep you updated

TEE says:
alright man

TEE says:
peace

 

Monday, December 20, 2004

Dec
20

Well, Little Jarvi is talking to me again, Fancy that! Told Paul about what happened to me last last week. I think he took it well. It sucks talking about it… but I do need to get it out… It’s some tough crap, but I think I’ll get through it I think…

Ariel is on it seems… Talking to her as Im writing… and Matt Hayden (YEAH GO MATT! ZUP DUDE?) Yeh well anyway, my life seems to be taking order again, for how long I don’t know. I’ll catch myself dwelling on all that crap just before I got to sleep. Work in progress. I think I got this computer going pretty good too… Yep…

GRANT AND JASON ARE COMING OVER TOMORROW!!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!!!!! Yeh, finally… they never got to come over… We will have alot of food guys.. Jason bring the X-box! Yeh… Well i got my friends, Lindsey, my computer, and FOOD!!! I think I’m all set for the week! Lindsey wants me to go take pictures with her at her families house… little Christmas present for my Grandma I thknk… (she so deserves one too, she is the nicest lady in the world, little hard of hearing but that comes with age…. no shes great, best thing I’ve got!)

I think that’s the recap of the day.. Passed all my Black day classes with an “A”. Just pray to God that English won’t bring me down… PLEASE LET ME GET AN “A”!… Paul thanks, Matt thanks, and Hey Bekah thanks for the Christmas Present (the card) sry I don’t know if I can get you guys anything… we are a little short-handed riight now… You too Grant the sponge bob key chain thing is the STUFF!

-Peace Outwards!-

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Dec
19

We’ll today was interesting, learned alot about computers and tried to make a live user forum for everyone in Paola, I’ll see how that turns out, it would be even cooler than these Xanga’s

… no Youth Group though… I got to talk to Matt Hayden, haven’t done that in awhile, last time I saw him was bowling night with the robotics team, GO 1108! He’s a good guy, Matt. He helped me for like 7 hours today on my computer trying to get this thing to run a bit faster! LOL… Oh man… I really don’t think I had too many complaints about today other than that TOMORROW is FINALS! Grrrrrrr….. I’ll get over that.

Still no word from the Jarvi girl, I bet I’ll hear from her tomorrow though. My grandma made me a bunch of food to bring to IHT class for the final. The only final I’m worried about is on Tuesday… English… oh man am I having a time in there! I pray I got an “A”. I know to most of you that a “B” is great but I feel like I fail myself when I get one… It’s like I didn’t try. Like I said a Fair day few problems… nothing compared to last weeks stress in my Xanga that I wrote about two days ago.

-I’ll check you peeps later-

And Greg…YOU’VE BEEN DENIED!, LOL!