Wow… yesterday was really bad for me… I scare myself sometimes… oh well. Today is another day, and it was alot better too, except for me being sick, I was running a bit of a fever this morning and decided to stay at home. It was probably good for me, I needed a day off.

Well, now that I feel half way decent… back to school tommorrow! Woo Hoo… No MSN still… I cannot figure that crap out! I hope I’m feeling as I am now tommorrow. I get depressed very easily now and I really don’t like it. I think I scared Grant yesterday with it too. I’ll fall inside myself and not be as social. Things get to me too easily! Hopefully I’ll be able to get over this real soon. I don’t like to be that way, it’s not me.

I’d have to say the only bad thing about feeling better today is that I’m going to feel bad again tommorrow evening. I have a meeting with my social worker again at 5:00. That’s where I have to relive all the bad things in my life over and over and over and over again! I can’t sleep when that happens, I’ll stay up for like 2 hours going over it all in my head. Tyler tells me just to forget all of it. That would probably help, but when you have somebody that is there to make you relive it or just one thing that triggers those thoughts again, it can real hard at times… IDK… life sucks for us all sometimes, maybe in different degrees according to the person, but it still happens.

Well happy thoughts everyone- take a deep breath and live today and stop remembering the day before. Look ahead of you and not behind you. That goes for me too. I need to start thinking about brighter things in my life instead of thinking about the darker side to things. I’ll see most of you later and to those of you I don’t have a pleasant time in the meanwhile!

-A toute a leur-

COREY