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“God does not see the same way people see. People look at the ouside of a person, but the Lord looks at the heart.” I Samuel 16:7b (NCV)

That doesn’t mean you can’t yourself look at the heart of someone. As it’s known: “A person is smart, people are dumb.” And each person is an image of God. We are all a reflection, what we do is seen by all. Make your image a work of art.

I’ve had a wonderful day. That doesn’t mean everything went right, of course, but I did have a wonderful day. Lindsay and I are so close now. I love her. I pray for her each night and I pray for us. I’ve let go of my lusts in life and all my wants. I’ve given all my fear and all my anger to God. And it’s working like no other. I was feeling so depressed a couple nights ago. Lindsay and I were having troubles and I was of course the dweller, setting all my attention on my sorrows. I felt like the world was crashing.

I went to bed that night asking God to show me the way and all of the sudden I had this idea, it just popped into my head, more like placed. I wrote my prayer for that night in a poem. I’ve never been very good at rhyming or anything, but it all went together. I didn’t think about it. I just wrote. I had it done in minutes. I truly believe God was writing through me… here is that prayer:

AM I WHO I AM By Corey Campbell

What’s wrong with me?
Lord show me the way
Oh Lord, what’s wrong with me?
My trouble has no name.

I can’t cure this illness
Deep down inside of me
What is this illness
That blinds my path to see

I seek the world
But the world only knows wrong
I want to fit in
But I already belong

I do everything for a girl
To make her understand
I don’t want to lose her
Yet she’s here holding my hand

I want so bad to have a plan
to know what will become of me
But God says give me your life
And great things I’ll bring

I say one thing
But throw out another
I’m happy about something
But at the same time I shudder

What’s wrong with me?
I might sing forever
What’s wrong with me?
I don’t want things to get better

Why do I do this?
I say it’s just me
It’s everything I do
And don’t want to be

I’m lost in confusion
I’m lost in a storm
Everything may thunder down
But it drys up when it’s warm

Am I who I am?
What I always wanted to be
Am I who I am
My childhood dream

I don’t have very long
I better make life fun
Give all my jealousy, fear, and lust to this night
And wake new, God’s forgiven son

I pray for my friends
I pray for my family
I pray all wounds mend
I pray for the present
That’s all I need
For the Lord is my shepard
And I shall follow his lead

That same night I wrote down on my hand: “I dare you to have the best day of your life, you have 24 hours”

I set out the next day to make it great. I mixed stuff up. Put my socks on inside out, brushed my teeth with my left hand and just did everything backwards. I called up Lindsay and asked her if she wanted to just go do random things today. She said okay. Well I got there and we weren’t able to. Her family came over. I didn’t care. I love them, they all are great. I pray they consider me part of theirs cause I consider them part of mine.

Lindsay and I got on the computer. She got a call. She had gone skating, and got the number of some boy (We were not going out at this time, just kinda dating, cause that’s what we thought we wanted to do). My entire day was ruined! I couldn’t believe it! I WANT SO BAD TO JUST FEEL GOOD. I couldn’t handle my jealousy. I wanted to end it. But I must be really bad at that because we got together. God was giving me everything. We got a call to go to the drive-in with a bunch of friends. I had so much fun. Lindsay and I were so happy. All that was bad became good, and I KNOW for 100% that God was behind it. I gave him my life, and all the bad things in my life that I think are just going to screw it up don’t affect me. I some how find some way to make it good. I am starting to notice how good I have it. And I just can’t believe my eyes. God provides me with the strength to live each day to its fullest.

I love Lindsay so much and I don’t know who cares. All that broke apart in my life fell down and pieced back together.

There are so many things that I’m so Grateful for:

GOD
MY LIFE
LINDSAY
YOU
GRANT
TYLER
BRAD
MARI
DANIEL
JASON
BEKAH
MORGAN
BAILEY
MEGAN
ELLEN
RICK
PAUL
ALL OF MY FRIENDS
HANNA
ERICA
ALL OF LINDSAY’S FRIENDS
PEOPLE I DON’T KNOW
PEOPLE I DO KNOW
MUSIC
THE ROBOTICS TEAM
MAWZIE
MY SISTERS
MY BROTHER
RYAN
BASEBALL
THE DAY
THE NIGHT
THE MORNING
MY LEFT SHOE LACE
HAVING GAS IN MY CAR
MY FOOD
ANYTHING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE I DIDN’T NAME

I PRAY FOR YOU ALL EACH AND EVERY NIGHT, DON’T EVER WALK OUT OF MY LIFE. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

I DARE YOU ALL TO HAVE THE BEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE 24 HOURS.

BEST OF LUCK!

COREY