Monday, August 29, 2005
You know what? Just when things couldn’t be worse for me… I feel some sense of happiness inside of me. A lot of you know what I’m talking about. Yes, it does involve a girl that broke my heart. It’s real bad. I catch myself wondering… how?…why?
Yet there is just something inside of me that is determined not to let me crash into myself. There’s just this something that I can’t let go of. It’s just so weird. I mean I should feel so so horrible right now, and don’t get me wrong, I feel bad, but there is just this something that is not letting my spirits fall.
Many of you might know what this is. Some of you may never have felt it and maybe never will. Do you all know what this is? What is this feeling inside of me? I know what it is and I am just so glad I have it. It’s truly changed my life and I just feel so overwhelmed with the feeling that things are going to get better. AND I KNOW THEY WILL. Isn’t that crazy? Coming from the Kid Formerly Known as Depressive. IDK. I’m just not going to let things bug me. God can have my troubles, I’ll let him work them all out into a work of art instead of a glob of clutter.
It’s so crazy!!!!! I was so depressive when these things happened. I found myself clinging to people’s sympothy for me. WHATEVER YOU DO when someone is feeling bad, guys and girls, don’t sympathize with them EVER. Don’t give in. I’ve realized it. It’s not good for them. Be positive towards them ONLY. Tell them things will get better. If they ask how, just tell them you have to believe as you believe. I know it all! I know the games that go inside someone like that. I used to just SUCK all the sympathy I could off of people just drowning myself with further depression. I pray for you all who feel like this.
THINGS ARE TOUGH, they are going to be. But who wants to live a life where everything just comes to you easy. Yes its relaxing…. but…. you aren’t going to have anything to strive for. STRIVE everyone, STRIVE… and you will make it.
I love you all, thanks for being there!
-COREY
