Dead… ever feel that? Completely dissolved into the world. I feel it sometimes. My prayers seem hollow… I seem so empty… so confused… so dead… I keep questioning myself: Am I praying to pray? Are my tears of pain and sorrow… or of just tears?

Life turns around on you occasionally. You find yourself grasping for a moment when things were good. When you were beaming with happiness. You pray for that to be back on you but what you don’t realize is… that moment wont become again.

__Tears. Oh… I pray. I pray. But now I remember… God loves me… God has faith in me… it’s not one-sided… I’m loved. There’s nothing that can change that! God will love me for who I am no matter what! NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT!__

I’m loved… So why is this deadness inside of me? What binds this to my heart?… it’s… it’s my blindness to accept God’s love. I think I’m out on my own with the weight of the world on my shoulders… and that’s just simply not true. God’s holding it up for me and I’m pulling it down on myself… it’s so sad… how does this happen?

It’s my lack of acceptance of God’s will.

God’s not making a list of all my sins and mistakes, he’s not out to get me. He loves me… and I just forgot.

“ [Jesus Comforts His Disciples ] “Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. ”- John 14:1-3

[That MOMENT may never become again... but you can always make a new one.]

God’s will be on you,
COREY

FINALS… the end of the year… AND THAT MEANS ROBOTICS IS STARTING! YEsssSssSssss…..

Wow I want to buy every video that Joseph Lai has ever produced at http://www.ifd.com.hk/. Yes… cheap dollar rip-offs from Korea! Well… I’ll see you all soon!

Thanks Mari for Wednesday it was SUPER COOL, and I now highly reccomend Narnia to everyone!

Lots of love,

COREY