Yeah so here’s the dreary story about my midnight crisis. I’ve been trying to get vista to work on my new pc. Took me over 50 hours to figure out how to configure all the settings so that it worked with my computer.. I’ve got it all right now. Everything is working fine. Just earlier I formatted my external hard drive because it was no longer in sync with my internal drive… this turns out to be a bad idea later on as you’ll see. This external drive is the backup of all my secondary drive data (I have one drive for my operating system and one for my data). Well, something goes amiss and I have to reformat my C: drive that had the current operating system on it. So I pop in the vista disc, go to install, and planned to delete and format the drive.

The installation window displays a list of my drives to format and delete. I select the C: drive and press delete. Here’s where things get bad. In order to add a fresh installation of windows I have to hit delete, and then I have to click format. Well I hit delete like I said… and I click delete BUT JUST AS I DO!!!! OH NO!!! THE FREAKING LIST SELECTED MY SECONDARY HARD DRIVE!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I press my restart button with lightening reflex in complete terror! I restart the computer hoping that my data is still on my drive… is it… loading… please be… loading… is it?!!!…. formatted drive… NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So… a test… how do I react… did I really freak out like that? Nope… that was all in my head. I actually didn’t freak out as bad as I thought I would. I thought I would scream… I often wondered what it would be like to lose everything I owned… Well. This has happened before… but I wanted to see if I was too close to my technology friend. God and I had a conversation long ago about this. Whether I could handle it. Looks like I might have it down.

The Resolution and Revival
So I was able to save the data off my formatted hard drive from a lovely software program that reads formatted  disks… found it all, copied it over. Safe… and sound once again. It was mind boggling that it could do that, but totally made sense at the same time… figure that one out…

Life is new again.. *breath*

It’s not that I don’t want these things, I do desire to have a lot of fun this summer. I just had a stressful few days and it made me unhappy. If only people were just a bit more understanding sometimes… the main reason why I’m scared for summer.